Kaypacha Report: Instead of hiding I need to come out~

Hi , this happened to me many times in this life but the real ones around me always forgave me ( not many though but the real friends / close ones ).
I have been on this spiritual path for many years ( solid yoga background + numerous travels in Asia or South West Usa ) – i found myself during those years dealing with old repressed anger that bursted through many challenging situations ( and with people too ) but i came to realize that anger had to come out in some way ( release in some way ) but i didn’t like the way i expressed it – i was willing to find a better way anyhow . What i also realized later on is that any form of repressed emotions ( not only anger but frustration , denial ,undermining patterns , low Self Esteem )could lead myself to the same frustrating spot if not dealt consciously within when they arise . in 2012 , i bumped on a foundation for spiritual evolution called ” Openhand ” and they have a very insightfull approach with emotions , mind patterns , and much more . What they advise is not easy but effective : If any emotion / or tightness arises in certain situations , what we can do is be with it first ; not trying to put it away or numb it with any means – than soften within that emotion/tightness with all your willingness to feel it fully ( whatever it may be / tough or rough or ugly ) and Shine through with your Heart / Higher Self – releasing it if u like ( which is also called ” letting go ” ). The crucial part is to find out why your mind got angry in the first place ( what triggers the anger or the rage ). Our limited society does not advocate expressing emotions fully ( rather they try to distract us from such benevolent inner healthy process ) – i didn’t mean to express anger in the face of people who might be well responsible by awfull behavior like disrespect or cheating or whatever else . It’s that Openhand approach i learned slowly , bit by bit for 2years and a half that really makes a huge difference in dealing with emotions / mind patterns triggering the emotion ; i have never felt so capable , empowered , released at some point from older mind patterns when they arise . I can deal with it but in a much effective smart intelligent way ; it’s still in full progress of course .
One thing u can do is forgive yourself . Nobody else other than you can do that properly ; even as tough as it seems to be . Forgiveness is a powerfull way to release yourself from what happened – maybe u might find also that u need to send appologizes as well to some people – if they can’t forgive you , they seem not to be worth being with you anymore . ( i expererienced numerous cases like this too ). Your Guardian Angel has allready forgiven you so to speak ; that’s clear . That’s half the work done to help u release any attachement your mind would cling on for what happened . Your mind has surely build up many thoughts about the gravity of what u have done ( maybe it is so ) but that’s how mind operates anyway somehow after the event took place . I encounter numerous people not willing to forgive what others did to them but that keep them in a past negative loop within – no release can happen from that ressitence ( or limiting beleif system ) but i keep listening to them knowing they can free themselves if they really want to . After forgiveness can be acheived within , u can promise yourself to be more watchfull ( higher awareness Presence ) and find a smoother way to deal with arising emotions ; because they will surely arise again- than i am sure about . Even high masters still have to express and fully process emotions – they just know how to do it smoothly without hurting anyone . That’s the higher levels of Soul embodiment; that’s possible for us too , i beleive . Please check out the Openhand Foundation , u might find great inspirational insights ( articles ) that will help tremendously your own Path . I hope it helps , Love .